“One thing I am certain of, I do not want to be betrayed, but that’s quite hard to say casually, at the beginning of a relationship. It’s not a word people use very often, which confuses me, because there are different kinds of infidelity, but betrayal is betrayal wherever you find it. By betrayal, I mean promising to be on your side, and then being on somebody else’s.”
― Jeanette Winterson, Oranges are Not the Only Fruit
The strangest thought about betrayal popped in my head today…that even loyalty can be a betrayal between lovers. Although I have a strong and clear aversion to speaking about feelings it doesn’t mean I don’t have them. I will be the first to admit I lack the usually sentimentality most women have and utterly lack the desire to pin a man down, I still being in love and more so, in being IN love. I want, of course to have both these reciprocated. I don’t know if this is where my pride kicks in, but I would kind of like someone’s soul as well. I would be shattered if I found out that my beloved with with me for anything other than love and being in love. Yes of course loyalty, trust, care, and blah blah blah, but if someone is staying without loving and being in love that is a betrayal…to both people.